Before Deliverance I was a mess and had lots of problems including severe anxiety, stress, fear, worry, depression, anger, rage, and seizures (pseudo-seizures) which my neurologist told me was from stress. I didn’t want to work and when I did work I couldn’t hold a job. I was on Prozac for depression/anxiety and I was unable to sleep. I couldn’t sleep even though I was on Ambien which is a prescription drug to induce sleep. I yelled at my kids a lot and also my ex. Yes, I am a Christian but had trouble living the life. I was totally defeated.
I was addicted to sex. I knew it was wrong in God’s eyes that I was having sex with many men, but I could not stop. I wanted to stop and would always tell myself I won’t do it again. But I would any way. Men would call me on the phone when they wanted it and I would let them come over and use me. I didn’t know how to stop. I was always questioning God, “Why me? What did I do wrong? Am I really a Christian? I go to church faithfully so why are these things happening to me?” I could not escape my problems, but I wanted to know God and feel Him close to me. A friend who knew about my issues told me about deliverance. I didn’t know anything about demons or even if I believed in them. But I was willing to do anything to get closer to God and be freed from all these problems that tormented me. So, I was super excited to participate in a deliverance weekend from Friday night through Sunday night. Maybe this would help. The team of four ministered to me during that time and then another lady joined us on Sunday who also received deliverance.
During Deliverance There were many hours of biblical teaching and throughout the time there were a number of deliverance sessions where I repented of my sins and forgave others. Hurtful memories came to my mind that I needed to give to Jesus to be sealed away forever. Then demons were cast out of me by the team in the name of Jesus Christ. I don’t remember a lot about what happened because when the demons surfaced in me, I was semi-conscious. I know they sometimes spoke through me to try to confuse the team and they frequently came out screaming.
I do remember two things specifically that happened. One is what a relief it was when they came out! WOW, what a relief! My mind was clearing up and all the torments were losing their grip with each session. The second one is when evil spirits of sexual lust came out of me. At the very moment the spirits came out, my cell phone rang and it was one of the men I was having sex with calling for another encounter! I hadn’t heard from him in a few months. Satan was working to try to stop the deliverance! I did not return the call. Prior to my deliverance, I would have called him right back. I blocked him and deleted his # from my phone immediately.
On Sunday, another lady needing deliverance joined us and at one point I joined the team casting out the demons! I was amazed at how spirits reacted in her when I commanded them to come out in Jesus’ name! I couldn’t believe that God would allow me, a failure in life, to take authority over evil spirits in Jesus’ name! My confidence as a Christian grew along with my boldness. I came to understand more fully how God forgives people totally and how He changes lives-mine especially.
After Deliverance It has been two months since my deliverance weekend. I sensed huge relief that first night. I was able to sleep soundly! Anxiety had lifted and I felt so attracted to Jesus. I went to God’s Word and memorized Scriptures that I needed in order to keep my deliverance. I was so hungry for more of God! Evil spirits tried to come back and I casted them away in Jesus name! Men have continued to call me for sex and I have not answered or called them back. I have blocked their phone numbers. I have no desire for that kind of relationship now. Seizures have stopped. Without even realizing it, I stopped taking all of my anxiety meds…I don’t need them anymore! I got a new job and have kept it. Friends and church people I know have noticed the difference in me and have said that I look younger. They are amazed that I am not stressed even with issues in my life that are not the best yet. My pastor said, “Whoa girl! You’ve changed so much! You’ve come a long way!” I am a new person!
I want everyone to know how good God is and I have a new confidence. Imagine, the woman who was afraid of her own shadow is going door to door witnessing! That is me! I have no fear of people. Before my deliverance, my daughter wanted nothing to do with God or church or the Bible. She recently got saved and we are doing daily Bible study! God is so good! Praise Him!!